I'm finally 18. Lots of things to do from now on.
Birthday's the perfect time to tell your friend from your foe. I've learnt alot this year. Thank god for giving me the chance to.

Yeah that's what i'm facing. Can't wait for my birthday to come. Things are going to change. Hope for a better life.

I miss myself six months back. So carefree, so bold, so strong. The good old blonde me.

Lots of things about myself that i truly admire. First and foremost, i choose to be honest and forth-right in every and anything that i set my mind to. This is one good reminder to those who expect a birthday present from me; If i'm not informed i wouldn't even have the time to remember, so do keep me posted on your ideal birthday present. Secondly, i'm always truthful to something that i'm pursuing be it an interest or a concept. Hip hop forever!!
Last but not least, i love my style. This groove that i have on, i feel, just sets me apart from other people. Call me a *zi lian kuang, but i do believe that i only have these few years to constantly remind myself of my personality rather than having to miss the chance to admire myself. I have my good buddy Sze Jia Lan to thank, for being there to witness this change in me, for being a good listener, buddy and confidant. Thanks so much. The picture attached below was taken quite a long time ago, but yeah that's us.

*zi lian kuang:- to be overly infatuated with one's self.

Sigh, where am i? Where do i belong? I don't know, but i intend to spend the rest of my life finding out.

It's only normal for tears to be shed when one cries. The question is, why am i different?
I remember the feeling of first heartbreak, I too remember the feeling of losing somebody important. This time around, it's more of a combination. In a chem lab, when you concoct two toxic chemicals that repel each other in terms of scientific relativty, you often end up with an undesirable outcome. But for my case, the tears never rolled down.
She made my day. The bright, witty, annoying yet loveable girl whose name i will not mention. I gave her two choices; me or him. It was fairly simple and all but from her hesitation i could tell that i wasn't in her mind. I walked off in despair, hoping that she would be chasing me. She never came. The entrance of Regent Heights seemed so cold at first glance. All i could remember was the simultaneous ringing that came from my cell phone, indian families and more indian families.i chanced upon an old timer named Christopher as he questioned my doleful state, "Evan, cheer up la it's not the end of the world."
Oh yes Chris, it is the end of my world. I'll never repeat my actions ever again. I'll never fall in love so deeply unless i am certain that my feelings are reciprocated. Strolling pass the swimming pool, to the upper deck, i decided to take a short detour. At that moment in time, i knew i was close to heartbreak. Then, i crouched against the back of the clubhouse, telling myself, "You wanna cry? Go ahead nobody's looking."
Sad to say, my eyes were dry. Why is the world so unfair to me? Am i really fated to lead a single life?

Wednesdays Simple and clean. Nothing fantastic happening of late. My life's probably beginning to settle down. All my previous doubts in life have been starting to clear itself as the days go by. No more money problems, no more company troubles, no more issues with relationships. I have finally seen the light i'd say.
People change alot too, from what i've learnt today. My ex-classmate i met today for lunch turned out to be totally unlike what i expected. A total 180 degree change. She was obnoxious, arrogant and selfish from what i knew. But now, she appeared to be more laid back. And i feel comfortable being around her. Weird huh?
Although it was only west mall, we pranced around the whole place as if we owned it, plus we went shopping to get myself a few more business outfits(chosen by her). The entire experience was just so comforting. A good day away from work i guess.